RELATIONSHIPS Which one first?

Partners, siblings, children, friends, parents, grandchildren & grandparents, co-workers...

RELATIONSHIPS: Are some more important than others?

The Number One Relationship... My Journal to Him...

I know my mind has been in such a war as I’m inundated with thoughts and memories mostly of my loss and my deep heart aches at his hand… lies, etc.

I KNOW I was past it all. Please help me in every direction, Jesus.

I KNOW You will help me.

I love You, Jesus.

Jesus, helps us with our relationships... He IS our NUMBER ONE RELATIONSHIP.

What about church?

As I heard them speak and remembered when my daughter told the leaders who are hearing me now but not comprehending that I wanted what they had with their group… a group where we did life together… we were there for each other… a group that loved the Lord together and one another... Relationships.

(They still didn't hear but my teenage daughter understood at that time.)

WHERE ARE THE RELATIONSHIPS? ... more journaling:

I think the enemy was trying to pull me back into the Fear of Man as I touched on being concerned about what they... people... thought. They probably didn’t think about me at all. If they did, I’m not sure it would be good. BUT, why does it even matter to me?

Perhaps it’s because people only have a piece of my story (I see a puzzle piece).
They didn’t know me.
They didn’t want a project.
They wanted someone who had it all together and was a leader with confidence.
That’s how we came to them… just that way.

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YOU are my tribe, Jesus. You and anyone You want me to be in relationship with at any given time. Yes, they can change, but You never change.
You ARE THE BEST tribe anyone could ever hope for. You KNOW me. You LOVE me. You even CREATED me. You CHOSE me. You will NEVER LEAVE me nor ever FORSAKE me. You will listen at any time of day and have a set meeting time with me every single morning that is just for You and me exclusively and ALWAYS show up.
I truly have it ALL when I have You as my Tribe.
(Go over this section and make it personal to YOU. Pray this over yourself because He feels that exact same way about you!!!)

I could allow the enemy to make me think I missed out as friends have come and gone… groups that I love have gone… even husbands who were supposed to be forever gave up on me. The longing closeness with family members came with conditions. Oh, the deep pain...

BUT,
You had me always.

You promised in Your Word that You would use EVERYTHING for good for me because I love You and I’m called according to YOUR purpose. (Rom 8:28).
I am. You do. You have. (Claim this for you, too!)


I KNOW I have the background of pain, hurt, rejection and so much more which allowed me to learn to overcome and now I am ready to help others who have endured a life of much pain.

My beginnings caused me to learn coping skills and embedded many lies that I came to believe
"were just my personality".

Over time, YOU, Jesus, helped pull me out of the only reality I ever knew. You helped me see Truth with each event I went to, every friendship I had... each ending of what was to be forever for me... with each person and with every excruciatingly painful trial I endured.

I have a masters in OVERCOMING now just in life-experiences.
I am currently working on my doctorate in that area still.

Thank You, Jesus. You know who I am, and I know much about who I am now and why I chose what I chose.
I trusted in people too much.
...Then I didn’t trust at all.

I saw signs that were too obvious, but I was raised to believe I was incorrect about everything I witnessed.

“NO! “I” will tell you your truth,” said most every adult that raised me.

I now recognize the signs of WHEN FREEDOM is not here.
Peace is gone.
Confusion and oppression are beginning to press me into a hole
where they can bury me and take over again.

Even though much of what I suspect people are thinking of me might be true, it doesn’t have to affect me or even bother me.

My life is not my own.

It belongs to Jesus.

We say that so casually, but it’s true.

It’s deeper than we think. We are an active part of this!
We have to release the grip on our perceived reality…
the reality that’s been drilled into us in our most vulnerable and trusting years.

We must give EVERY S I N G L E thing… event, season, person… EVERYTHING over to the Lord.
Physically set it at His feet and then let Him put us back together in His Truth.
(Do this now. Physically hold your hands open and face up and picture each person, one at a time, there and then go physically lay it at the foot of the cross that you see in your mind's eye.)

The Lord will cause events, meetings with people, and seasons
where we relearn His way... if we let go and let Him.

We will notice the same patterns beginning to play out once again,
BUT
we will SEE it,
SENSE it,
FEEL it,
KNOW it…
and turn to Jesus where
He can show us Truth.

It’s ON-THE-JOB training!!!

I fall into puddles now rather than lakes of doubt about myself and all the old as the enemy comes again especially when we are vulnerable or about to advance to try to PULL us back reminding us of all the familiar voices and feelings, but our eyes are now opened. All we have to do is

CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THE TRUTH.
That’s right.
TRUTH

Take those scriptures and SILENCE that enemy telling him the TRUTH of his defeat
and place it all under Jesus’ feet which includes your feet, too.
Then tell him and ourselves who we REALLY ARE!

Find scriptures that relate like “I am a child of the most-high God!” (Ps 82.6)
“He has plans for me that are good… to prosper me and not to harm me.” (Jer 29:11)
I live for Him and “He makes my path straight”. (Prov 3:5-6)
(See, I could add because I acknowledge Him in all my ways and do not lean unto my own understanding, but He knows and I know that part applies when it’s just He and I talking.)

When I do this, satan HAS TO FLEE because I am resisting him which is also a scripture.
You do this, too. (James 4:7)

Oh, Jesus, You are mine and I am Yours.
You now keep giving me words to write. You now keep using it all for good!

(If you didn't get who the #1 relationship is in this order, it's Jesus.)

This is a clue to the #2 relationship.

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